7 April 2005

Cutting the cord.

I don’t know if you have children. If you’ve experienced that peculiar feeling when you’re leaving the maternity ward and suddenly realise that it’s for real.

In hospital it’s all so well laid out. Food is served at set times, midwives help out, telling mommies how best to feed their babies. How do you wash the sore from the umbilical cord, how do you change nappies and what about the vitamins? They know such things. It’s like checking in to a theme-hotel. “Welcome to the Mum-dad’n-baby-inn – the hotel with full family focus”.

Then you get home. You walk through the door of your own home, your furniture, your bathroom and your CD’s. That’s when it dawns on you. “Shit, he’s staying here now!”. You can’t leave him (or her, for that matter) back, he’s for real. We’ll have to manage on our own now. Without the theme-hotel midwives.

If you’ve been there, I’m sure you’ve also been through the phase where you spend most of your waken hours watching your baby. When you peep into the cot over and over again, just to make sure they’re breathing. At least eighteen times a day.

I’ve been there. I already have a son. One without a heart condition. Here’s what I’d like to know: how the hell do I find the courage to bring Abbe home?

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